Today After a 4 Hour Nap

i woke up and realized a LOT of things :

first i need to acknowledge that i have a lot going on for me, and i am quite aware of my situation and possibilities 

i have to stop making assumptions

i have to clear my mind

i have to become ignorant to others thoughts and ideas

and i have to try my best in everything i do

…wise words from my mom

tomorrow is going to be a step toward trying to be the susie i used to be 2 years ago, strong, determined, non reliant on others for happiness, focused and positive.

I am honestly so much more content sitting in my room alone at night smiling and crying to myself as I watch my favorite tv shows, than being out in the uncomfortable situation that involves me pretending to be having the good time of my life with boring people, who don’t know a thing about me, who don’t care about me, who do pointless things.